The school year is coming to an end, with a mere 24 days left. Looking back I have been reviewing the things I have learned this year, about myself and about others. There have been times when my interaction with fellow teachers has proven challenging- making me reassess who I am, and who I become when I interact with them. The head teacher I assist who is 16 years my junior, came right out and told me “they bring out the worst in you.” She was so right. It is easy to get caught up in allowing the negative behavior of others and their lack of integrity, to cloud my judgment and bring out the worst in me. I am a rule follower, and as I continued to follow the rules while others scoffed and broke them, I became too focused on how unjust it seemed, how unfair that they were “getting away with it.” My resentment was growing and gnawing away at my insides. My husband said I needed to let it go, if they choose to act without integrity, to take the low road by lying, complaining, and attempting to elevate themselves by pointing out the faults in others, I should not lower myself to their level by allowing that resentment to eat me up alive. Many times I use the phrase “be your best self” and now I needed to listen to my own advice, and take my own advice. Stop worrying about what they were “getting away with”- but instead focus on being the best person I could be, not allowing their ugly behavior to turn me into an ugly person, dragging me down, complaining and spewing my resentment to anyone who would listen.
I already feel better changing my “focus” -minding my own business and not letting the choices others make have an impact on who I am. Focus once again on being my best self.